Last week I got some vacation from last year, 15 days. It was great, I was hilarious about it.

Last year I had some problems with my legs. Due to some reason, they are not very strong, could not stand too long, walk for more than 5 min, I even could not stand while having a shower.

Last January something happened (which I yet do not understand), and improved the thing a lot, being very happy about it. Unfortunately, the improvement did not continue, and right now I can do almost normal life, got back to the showers but I cant do other things like travelling, take the car for long journeys, etc… Which actually sucks…

Although I tend to be very possitive about it, the real thing is that I dont know what else is to do to feel better. I started with a new therapist (fisio), made accupunture,  changed my food habits (more mediterranean food style), go to swimm 4 days a week….

So I will continue with the search of well being . Tomorrow I will take Reiki sesion, which I guess could help. And probably soon I will start Yoga. Could be that my nervous system is sending signals to muscles, and they dont relax as they should. And when I start walking, they soon get saturated. This is soooooo weird. I am starting to be pretty nuts about this stuff.

I am starting to consider how should I compromise extreme work loads and my health. I love to pursuit impossible things (right, I am a sagitarious), but dont want my health to suffer. I guess some of these disorders may be well caused by my fight with my search engine system, the problems in the market to compete with Google, etc… When I was in University in Kansas, a professor came at a workshop and advised us: “Never, ever, ever, ever, ever give up”. I thought that to be a silly phrase, but later on I assumed this as a way of life. So basicly, I will never give up in pursuing the right for search technology engineers to survive even being Google and all the big empires.

Working in a company and allocating 13-16 hours a week after job doing programming for the search proyect has been probably too much, so I will break a little, and focus more on my health, now that everything is under way.

If would be easy (or hard, depends how you look at it), to give up and say: “man, I cant take it anymore”. I would relax a lot and spend more time in being happy, my weekends for me, cool. But after some time, my I would have felt that I gave up on my dream, and could not take that. But I will try to take it easy, so that all these google mania dont affect me. Now I have to take care of my health. Probably will seek help in programming (paying of course, and things like that).

Almost everybody I meet in Spain thinks my venture is a lost battle (even if they say it or not), but 90% of those people probably said the same thing when Google got the $20 million: Yahoo is a great brand, there is not place for a new search service… So we end up at the same place: “Never give up”. That is the 101 of internet entrepenours.

I think that I need to work on my mind, so that mind and body are balanced. Yoga could be great for this, so my inside energy is balanced.

Anyway, all this thing is a new journey for me, I hope to learn if anything is to be learnt from this small adventure.

So for these days I will be a tourist in Madrid, go to musseums, paseo del prado, riding on the no-top bus, sleep, go to nice restaurants, etc…

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